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i really want to....
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Its just that.....
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I dun dare....
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i cant make myself to do it....
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im sorry.
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...............i wonder..................
*are you still the *koala* that still wants to hug this tree?
or....
are you already hugging another tree*
hmm....\nvrm....
it doesnt matter....
*I.M.U*
...Tk Gd Care...
⥠you and i both loved
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
thats really what hurts the most.
i tired. did you?
⥠you and i both loved
Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me
I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong
Now I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these dry eyes
I told you everything, opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright, for once in my life
Now all that's left of me is what I pretend to be
So "happy" , but so broken up inside
Cause I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these dry eyes
Swallow me, then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you, it kills me now
No, I don't want to cry on the outside anymore
Anymore
(I'm sorry to say...IMU..alot....)
⥠you and i both loved
Its been a week now since everything ended..
And still, i cant believe that things have to end.
Yes i know i have to move on....
Its the time that i need in order to move on...
And i know it will certainly take a very long time before i can ever pick myself up again.
Spending time with friends is the only option that i have just to keep myself busy with
and not to think about it.
Getting busy with work and crapping and get crazy with friends during the day...
and by night....its the tears that i'm left with...
and the cycle goes on....
Sometimes i do wonder... if you ever still care about me?
But somtimes i don't even dare to think about it.
At times i do wish to talk or even see you...
But...i'm sorry... i just cant make myself to do it...
Just the thought of facing you, i'm became so afraid.
Im sorry cuz i'm no longer a brave person.
I'm sorry cuz i no longer have the confidence.
I'm no longer what i am and how i used to be.
But whatever it is....
since the day it ended...i want you to know that...
i've already forgiven you.
i have nothing against you...
i'm never angry with you...
Hope i'm forgiven too...
As for now, only time will be able to tell what's next...
"I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
If life will just be kind
To such a gentle mind
And If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way"
⥠you and i both loved
Diary Of The Broken - (10/8 - 10/12)
We were just friends at the start,
Always having fun, never apart
Then one day, something sparked
The next thing I knew, you had my heart.
The days flew by,
I lost track of time
Everytime I was with you,
I was on cloud nine.
Then one day, you wondered if we were more than just friends
I exclaimed, yes! and prayed we'd last until the very end.
No one could look into my eyes and say I wasn't happy,
Happy that I was with you, and you were with me.
With you in my arms, you told me you loved me,
Then gently kissed my forehead and gave me a squeeze.
I was convinced you were the one for me,
Apart from you, I would never be.
Just when I thought all was well,
Things changed and i experienced hell.
How you reacted shows that we should only be friends
That's when I knew it was the end.
I looked into your eyes, trying to find out why,
It was all I could do, not to begin to cry.
Where I once saw love, I saw nothing,
I couldn't believe you no longer felt something.
I lay in bed, counting my tears,
Each representing what I'd hoped would be years.
Years of happiness, for us to be together,
A long-lived life, forever and ever.
But in my heart, I know this will never be,
For in yours, no longer is there a place for me.
I gave you my all; I gave you my heart,
Little did I know that its now shattered apart.
Everyday I place a smile on my face,
As for tears, there is not a trace.
I just don't want to believe, but yet it's true,
And even though you no longer do,
As for me, i still love you.
⥠you and i both loved
Because love to me was first
I was betrayed and hately rewarded first
Because I cared to make few friends
I have lost count of my enemies
Because I feared to harm a fly
I was harmed much severely
Because I gave my food in all
I now boast and strut with beggars
Because I was loyal like a dog
Now I have no confidant
Because I took the truth to heart
I swallowed in all her truthful lies
How wicked it is to be good
And good to be wicked
This betrayal I can't repay
But yet I can't retain.
⥠you and i both loved
Snow Patrol - Run
I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done
And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it any where
Away from here
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you can not hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder, Louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
To think i might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyes
I nearly do
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you can not hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder, Louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
Slower, slower
We don't have time for that
All I want's to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads
Have heart, my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if its just for a few days
Making up for all this mess
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you can not hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
⥠you and i both loved
#The Re-edited from somewhere#
I feel
it's been a bad day, the yesterdays, today and in the days to come
Because of the morning, and then in the evening. Well, not really evening but night.
But nonetheless, something's gone wrong - and i blame all the things that we could've, but didn't.
Then i look back, and i don't mean to blame you, but of course i blame myself as well.
Then when i finally found the silence i started to listen. To everything i said.
That's the bad part about being me.
I hear the echoes - not the actions.
Now i'm listening to the echoes from just moments ago, and i realize - that what i said wasn't fair, at all.
Well, we all know how i lack in the sense that i really suck at making up for such mistakes.
I guess i've failed
And now as i listen and i know, that i really did.
It's quite a mess.
I guess i was just really angry because i felt that you weren't doing me any justice, by hiding, by..... avoiding, for fear that you would be shattering more than just dreams.
But i guess.
There's only so much wishful thinking can do.
But.....
There's nothing much i can do now...
I've done everything i could....
done the best i could....
gave everything i had....
and still....
i failed....Guess i'm to be blame for all....
Everything that i did....
was always too late...
and was never right...
It's the decision that you've made...
and all that i'm left is nothing but to respect it.
But do remember....my heart is still open....
And as i leave...I need you to know that i love you,
but sadly
i guess things have got to change.
Study hard
and
Take Good Care...
Till we ever meet again
I'll aways be there...
⥠you and i both loved